I Was Unarmed

I seldom expose my vulnerability publicly but if this will help anyone spiritually then I will count my heart-felt, raw emotions on ‘paper’ worth it.

I had a rough past week but it didn’t start that way. You see, I took a leap of faith the last Sunday of January.

Filled with joy I stepped out of church on cloud nine feeling invincible and like it was going to be the best week ever! InsteadΒ  everything that could go wrong went berserk, or so it felt.

Machines went down at work making it a very stressful week with much tension among the employees, disagreements with my husband which is rare, happenedΒ and I was diagnosed with an infection. Feeling sick and discouraged, I almost laughed with hysteria when my youngest came down with fever. Is there anything else that could happen since I’m barely keeping my head above the water and I can’t swim, I thought through my tears.

I should have been praying and fasting because I was feeling that this was the enemy attacking. I wanted comfort but instead of running to God, I ran for shelter where I shouldn’t have only to feel worse than I had before. I wept bitterly as Peter did when he denied God.

I still feel shakenΒ but sometimes it’s when I am broken πŸ’”, that God can seep through the cracks and get into my stubborn heart. It’s easier for me to stay down feeling unworthy but this is what faith is about. If I believe God forgives me, I must act accordingly and courageously forgive myself. Who am I to belittle His price on Calvary by dismissing the grace and mercy he extends to me. I am fighter and won’t let Satan win by staying down. So he knocked me down and I may have a black eye and swollen lip but here comes the comeback! I am stronger now because while I had fallen face down like a captive before the enemy, I cried out to the Lord, my Deliverer, my Savior and he fights for me and this battle is already won!

If you are going through something similar, don’t give up or let failure stand in the way of what God has in store for you! I’ll be praying for you and please pray for me! We received power when the Holy Spirit came upon us!

Ephesians 6:10-19
10 Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. 11 Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. 12 For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. 13 Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. 14 Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, 15 and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. 16 In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. 17 Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.

18 And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the Lord’s people.

We got this! ‘If God is for us, who can be against us?’

49 thoughts on “I Was Unarmed

  1. Bless you. It always seems to me that whenever I make a decision to come closer to God or to step out that everything instantly starts going downhill. Be encouraged – you’e not alone.

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  2. I almost hesitate to respond because unfortunately my memory reminds me that I have had a few of those and I was no shining star either. Sometimes we hit those walls and are reminded of our own limitations, vulnerability and our own need. The wall will pass. The important thing is you did eventually go to the Lord, confessed your short comings and asked for His forgiveness, which He obviously gives. It happens, not only to you but to all of us. I call them “course adjustments” and we all need them from time to time. If one of your children had a bad day how would it affect how you love them? Not at all I suspect. Lesson learned and we more forward. We learn that our true strength is in Him, it always has been. Grace and blessings my friend.

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  3. Thank you so much Tracy! πŸ’• It seems this is happening to me! God is not done with me yet, he is shaping me and making me stronger!


  4. God allows these situations in our lives to draw us closer to Him, to learn to trust Him in all things. As you said the victory is ours in Jesus. The enemy knows the right moment to attack and assault us so that our faith may fail. The more we learn to stand firm in the Word and in prayer, putting on the full armour the faster the enemy will flee. But yes! he always comes back. That’s the Christian life a battle for our faith. I have just come out of five days where everything that could go wrong did. I will keep you in prayer my friend. Thank you for sharing.πŸ’œ

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  5. I think in sharing your vulnerability with us, you have helped us feel less alone when our own lives take a wrong turn. Please know that I will be praying for you today. May the Holy Spirit strengthen you and remain with you, my dear.
    In Him,

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  6. Thank you! I’m glad you are out of your 5day trial! My daughter tested positive for flu yesterday and has an ear infection but I am a lot stronger than I was 5 days ago.

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  7. Thank you so much for sharing this with us. We have all been there. You’re not alone. God understands that we are also human. So, don’t beat yourself up. Just receive His love and grace. ❀

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  8. Thank you for sharing. Been there. Times like this demonstrate how precious the love and grace of God is. What a Heavenly FATHER we have!

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  9. One thing about the Book of Acts, they were all in one accord! We need to learn this unity in Christ! Pray for me too Jessy!

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  10. Thank you πŸ’•. I’m feeling better and for the first time in two days my daughter was able to sit up on her own. She still has low grade fever but her spirits are good making mama feel happy πŸ’•!

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  11. Amen! and a resource I found valuable in the fight is a book, “Giants Must Fall,” and its companion study guide by Louie Giglio.It’s filled with encouragement. Keep on keeping on!

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